The sun’s really good today:)

Anyway I got two things to do, one is to save more money by saving electricity, and the other is to study. I think I’d been very distracted. =(

I want to save electricity by:

1) Charging my handphone in the kitchen/study area

2) Using lappie in the study area to mug and to be less distracted by RAKUTEN.

And I need to start mugging of course. :/

I’m attending an awesome bible study at Awajimachi with Chihiro-san! More reports laters!!!:D <3

I believe that we all have got to pray for unbelievers.

And I believe there is not much success in preaching to believers, is there? To most unbelievers it is still looking at how blessed and happy the believer is that would make them convinced. Not preaching that much I believe.

The successful believer influences first. If not, why would people believe? If Love makes you an ugly, dissatisfied, poor person, would you want to be loved?

I just came back from church.

I’m glad i don’t have to do all the things ALONE. This is with regard to intensity and conviction. But please pray for me; I need to be safe to be !!!  to do God’s will right?

Anyway I am very saturated now. But I guess it’s a process.

I trust You, ok!

I tell you what happened during service today? I was crying throughout the time of worship. Don’t ask me why; I was so sad!

Imagine you make nice leaves on a beautiful tree. Then one day half the leaves tell you,

“YUCK YOUR IDEA SUCKS. LET ME ROT.”

sigh. it’s sad. Then you’d have half the tree rotting and half of it living.

But when you made the tree, you never wanted leaves to rot. There is obviously beauty in sin and ugliness but at the same time there are consequences.

Oh initially I wanted to post photos of my friends, but I decided not to, because the time is not right somehow. Maybe one day I’d show you my friends’ photos.

But I’d show you a pretty leaf today which I’m quite sure you’d almost never find in SG.

Let my experience speak for whoever whoever who views Japan as a place for outreach. Even my experience may not be sufficient or whatever la, for your purposes. Seriously–

–when the Holy Spirit works through me, then it needn’t matter for one bit that I’m on exchange. Because it’s not your timing. It’s God’s.

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Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I’m found
Was blind, but now I see
‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I’ve been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

Someone stole my heart. =.=

Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me!

Was all I was shouting.

I want to know you better!

Nice right? This is the view from my window.

Dear God

I am following what You told me by blogging more on this blog. Hmm in fact it’s in accordance to Your words, what You told me towards Your time with me:

“You could do things through your blog, beloved. Ever since I gave you the chance to go on SEP, to come to Japan. Post more, beloved. I will bless you.”

Well God, if my SEP could be a testimony for Your love, let it be so.

I always feared what people closest to me might say about me proclaiming my Love for you in public. It sounds strange, doesn’t it. Now I finally understood why Your Son had to speak in parables during his time. It was to protect His beloved, because they were as scared as I am. Despite You being physically with them, they still feared so much.

Lisa-san told me that she felt that I am looking for that One Love which will never change, throughout time. That’s why despite not knowing me, she said she felt that You loved me, Lord. But isn’t it true?

Thus far, I have only been looking for various Loves which I could control. And perhaps that’s really selfish of me. I’m glad they sensed it, Lord.

I’d learnt that I could hurt people being my old self, and I’m glad that I’d changed. I’d continue praying for people who needs a future with Your presence.

Human beings are always on this road to look out for Love.  Because they want to superimpose their identity on love. But it always fails because few human love is perfect.

Some people like the feeling of being in Love, and when the feelings wear off, they simply change partners. Some people forever put themselves first, and everything hence revolves around themselves.

If only they had known you, God.

Yours

wanwei

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自殺したいと考えてる方へ：

今日は、ただ一つのことを言いたいのです。

神様にとって、あなたはとっても大事な人なんです。

今のあなたはわからないかもしれないけど、

「神様は本当にあなたを愛してるよ」というのは真実です。

時を越えても、変わっていません。

神様はあなたを愛しています。

もしあなたが死んだら、神様は絶対悲しくなります。

神様はあなたにすばらしい未来をあげたいのです。

もしこの人生の意味がなっかたら、自分にもう一回チャンスをあげてください。

ぜひ私に連絡してください。sohwanwei@hotmail.com

No words can describe how You brought me back–closer than ever–and let this blog and my whole existence be testimony of Your Grace.

I’d never did once think that I’d update less than Daryl (HAHA just joking mans daryl i know you read this blog) when he was on SEP.

But here’s what guys, I’m fine. I’d been doing meaningful stuffs and hence I hadn’t been updating recently.

The stuffs I’m doing can’t be photographed. Or rather, more accurately put, the stuffs that I’d been done to cannot be seen, for the most of it.

Transformation IS an understatement.

Perhaps also let me put it this way. For people who want to go on SEP like super badly, I want to ask. Why?

 “Coz I love anime and I want to read manga.” And after that…what?

“Coz I want to be good at Japanese language.” And after that…what?

“Coz I want to own my own cafe.” And after that…what?

Yes all these are wonderful goals, but after that, what? Isn’t this what we call LEVEL UP? Do you sincerely think you’d die happy knowing Japanese…full stop? To put it another way, do you think your purpose in life is to study Japanese?

Let’s broaden our vision.

Isn’t it this way? If your vision is solely about you, you’re never going to reach out to the world.

That’s how it is, isn’t it?

To you, you’re the world. To the world, you’re nothing. How are you going to reach out then?

If you don’t take the world into your world, it’s always going to be about you. And whatever you get will hence be limited because what sustains all of us, really, are relationships.

Trust me, more or less I know who reads my blog, and to some extent it affects what I (don’t) write.

Simply put, if you are not at peace at this point of time in your life, I want you to stop focusing on yourself already. You were not created to focus on yourself. And that’s the best news ever.

Well I got a free mask yesterday, so I might as well post the results here. I think it was around 2am in the morning when I tried it on.

Was given this when going back to dorm.

Before using, no photoshop.

After 25mins. Perhaps it has whitening effects?

Okie off to study for quiz in the afternoon. =) I’d get more freebies soon in the month! Japan is just super interesting la, u can try out so many beauty products!! ^.^

I think when people are poor, they’d think of ways to survive.

Are we underestimating the potential of human beings? I wonder. Everyone has the ability to survive anywhere, innately.

sorry for the lack of updates. I have just been pure lazy to even take photos.

I haven’t been studying too, also, but REAL INTERACTION had just started=)

And I feel that I’m only starting to get comfy.

But JLPT 2 tho, is soon, so I need to start mugging soon lols:)